was at KFC today when i saw 2 sec schoolmates. at first couldnt recognise them, so i looked and looked. And you should know that when i look at people, i look like i'm staring. sorry man, my face is THAT kiam pa. lol. anyhoo, the guys stared back at me. stare here stare there, and in the end, nobody said hi. haha! so dumb.

Then i started thinking about my sec school. when i was in it, i hated it. but still, when it came to graduation day, i felt sad. cried when my form teacher made her speech. must be human nature... we only miss it when we lose it. when we have it, we find every reason to not like it. oh well.

since i never did come from any well known schools, i wanted very much to go somewhere better when it came to jc education. but i wasnt good enough. ended up somewhere i didnt really want to go to, and it took me quite a while to settle down even though i was there during PAE. but i guess it wasnt so bad for me, cos i was used to being in a school where there wasnt any rich history and filled with competitive people who keep trying to outdo each other, compared to those... how should i put it, schools with elitist culture. yucks. i didnt suffer from culture shock, thank goodness. otherwise i would be wallowing in self pity from day one.

seems that i am not allowed to show any feelings other than a smiley face. i'm not allowed to even sulk when i feel unwell? what is the meaning of this? u emotion-forcer.